Life Decisions.

As you probably know, my hubby and I have been trying to have a little one of our own.

It's been 19 long months of trying.

Back in March, I was referred by my doctor to see an infertility specialist to do more fertility specific testing to try and understand why we have not gotten pregnant. After loads of blood work (and a quite unpleasant dye test) I found out I have hypothyroidism and need to take one little pill every day now for the rest of my life.

My initial reaction to this:

Great.

I'm 27 years old and to take this pill for the rest of my life. Whoopee.

Can you feel my sarcasm? 

At least there was a reason for not getting knocked up seeing as all the hub's tests (you know, that one easy one he had to do ;)) came back normal.

I spoke with the specialist again in May, and he told me that all of our test results were good (now that I'm on my medication), and that our next step will be an IUI (google it). The only bad thing about that is there is a nice long list of people ahead of us for this procedure, so expect a call sometime in July to schedule the procedure.

June came and went so fast.

When July was right around the corner, the hubby tells me that he'll be leaving for some work trips the next couple months. The first thing I thought of was this stupid IUI, and I had an epiphany!

Why am I letting this rule my thoughts? He's going to be gone for a few weeks each month until at least September.

Why not .just. wait.

What a concept, huh ;)

It was like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders!

Just wait!

For how long?

At this point, who cares!

I have such an amazing husband, I'm healthy, I have 2 sweet dogs (yes 2!!), a nice home, 2 jobs that I enjoy, an amazing family and some equally amazing friends. I have a wonderful life! I don't need to dwell on what I don't have. I have so much more than so many others. I need to be more aware and thankful for all I DO have!

I came across a quote soon after this, I had seen it before, but it really hit home for me this time.

"If something is not happening for you

it doesn't mean it's never going to

happen.

It means

you're not yet ready for it".

I must have some growing as a person to do before I can bring another beautiful life into this world.

On a positive note, thanks to the thyroid medication (plus a healthier diet AND the addition of some braces!) I am back at my wedding weight! Yay! 

I am really going to try to be better about writing here! Our laptop kicked the bucket when Sadie chewed through the charger a few months ago. All we have now is an ancient (you know, from 2005!) laptop with no wireless connection.

Until next time!

~ t.Don